Tin House, Issue 67, March 2016.
From the piece: "During a particularly easy period for things unrelated to the complicated business of baby-making, a YouTube series I’d started, called Nate Draws the Internet, took off. We didn’t have happiness, my wife and I, we didn’t have certainty—but we had money for the first time. I walked around with David Byrne’s voice in my head warbling, I’ve got money now, I’ve got money now. The money was simple: it arrived weekly in a PayPal account, then was direct deposited into checking so we could spend it on stuff, or on medical bills like the one coming if we had to terminate the pregnancy. The happiness wasn’t simple, as I say. It wasn’t around yet. It might never find us."